Dog Eat, Dog World

Showing out love tag 

My lovely other half lost sister Maria and I had a girls night Saturday. After hookah, mango martinis and a Philly parking hunt/war we decided to hit up Underdogs, a "gourmet" and not your average hot dog joint. Try all twenty two flavors, get you menu punched and get your name on a wall fist of fame.I only have about eleven other hot dogs to destroy. I always take out of town friends here for a fun late night place to cure the snack tooth after partying in the city. Here I was embarking on the "Texas Tommy" a bacon wrapped dog topped with cheddar cheese and Maria had "The Warsaw", a polish sausage with saukraut.

Underdogs is located on 132 S. 17th Street.

They also have gluten free and veggie dogs.

When the Weather Outside is Frightful, Make it Delightful

It's snowing AGAIN in Philly. I admittedly am not a winter loving person but I will admit it is a beautiful sight for the most part. As I am not one to have "fun" in the snow I will make the best out of it indoors. Something I always did as a little kid which I think everyone has done and will never outgrow is writing on cold frosted windows. A frosted window screams to be touched with sarcasm, hearts, and our autographs on random surfaces. Another fun activity to do is make a cold treat. My sister and I are making all the Jell-O we have and flash freezing it outside by burying a tray of it in the snow.

So make use of the cold and the weather it brings!

Philly is so creative and unique even in our hair....errrr or lack of?

Wall art. Can't believe this place got evicted ;( Coolest gypsy wall art ever. NoLibs.

After rocking out with Zelda in my cast in the chilly rain to AWOLNATION chili at Darlings was much needed.

A little rain never hurt anyone or our cute smiles.

My Wonderwall

I told myself visit the wall on your first day off. Leave a permanent mark on how you feel Jess. So I did. This is one of many "Before I Die____" walls. If I were to tell anyone what I went through the past year, mentally,  financially, emotionally and most devastating physically then someone would probably ask me how I'm still standing. It was a tough year being 22. I lost, I prevailed, I struggled and I hurt both mentally and physically. I battled people, their thoughts, assumptions and my own heart. But most of all I lost someone I loved too much for my own good. I came to realizations that ultimately it was karma to me. Never hesitate to tell the one you love that they matter everyday, that they're worth it in life for whatever you go through. We've said words we didn't mean but nothing can repair us. I've made mistakes during your absence with other mistakes... they were only void fillers of a temporal need to be wanted, when all I wanted was us back. All I do is hope. We're two broken people trying to fix ourselves and in the process ended up breaking each other. Most of all I didn't just lose my lover, the only guy who lights up my face, but my best friend. Walle we may never speak or see each other again, but there is no physical or literal aspect of what we had and might still have that will ever make me feel different for you. We're in bad shape, we're odd, we don't fit in with the social blueprint or fickle mindset of the world today, but I will always love you, always be sorry, always forgive you and will always let you know you were worth it. 

Mother Theresa said:

 " I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love."

I am strong, I survived so much, I try and act tough and non affected but my wall is down for this wall for you. We've hurt so much, sometime in hate but there is nothing left in my heart but love because without your presence that is all I ever knew truly existed.

Before I die I want you to know your worth